Hmmmm...not sure why my last entry didn't make it, but I did post that life is better and I am less stressed. I'm always a little stressed, but deal with it. My stepdaughter is supposed to have a C-section on Tuesday, since her baby is breeched. So, she is very stressed!

But, we will get through it. Just a matter of keeping in mind that life is a blessing in itself and that worry is of little help.

Take care !

Jeff

I'm doing a lot better than I was before, both physically and mentally. My job is going pretty good and much of my worries were unfounded. Basically, after talking to a friend whom I trust and respect, I realized that I need to enjoy each day and stop worrying about the nonsense with my career. People care about me and even respect me at work, so I will always have contacts to do other things, if I have to. The problem with the world of government contracting is finding coverage for my time....when that runs out, life gets scary. I have at least two weeks of work and trust that more can be found for me.

I also am feeling better, after having a very large kidney stone. The doctor thought there was only a 50% chance it would pass and that I would need surgery. Fortunately, it passed last night and life is much better! Being pain free is pretty nice.

Have a wonderful and blessed day!

Jeff

I'm incredibly stressed out. I'm worried about my job, how I am performing and why I seem to be killing myself working, while only screwing up.

I am incredibly depressed, scared, and wondering how I let things get to this state.

Hopefully, things will get better soon, since I feel like my chest is in a vice grip and I wake up every morning panicked.

On a positive note, my blood sugar was 134 this morning, despite that I haven't worked out in over a week. I did go to the gym today and walked on a treadmill for 30 minutes. It helped the stress a little, but not completely. I also have lost some weight, from 359.7 to 352.8.

I'll post more when I can and hopefully, things will get better.

Jeff